Cutright gets transparent on All In My Head
In Jan 2020, Cutright almost killed himself while driving down I-77
While on the highway, it felt like an ocean of depression dropped on him. The flood of emotions he attempted to hold back for years finally broke free. At that moment the voice of the enemy whispered to close his eyes and told him that nobody cared. That he would never be good enough. That what he was doing didn’t matter…and he began to weep and scream at the top of his lungs.
“I felt like I was drowning for a long time and nobody knew. Not my wife. Not my mom. Not my friends. Nobody.”
For a split second, thought was given to what was suggested…then Cutright checked the track record of God’s faithfulness.
Despite tremendous failures and shortcomings, God overwhelms with his love and kindness. God has entrusted Cutright with the preaching of The Gospel. His heart has been restored and he has a wife who loves him incredibly. Jesus gave himself so that we could be reconciled to the Father.
As he cried out in the car, with tears blinding him, Cutright excited the highway…and chose life.
He could not allow TEMPORARY emotions to drive him to make an Eternal decision. Feelings change, seasons change, life changes…but the love of God has never changed.
Our mental health matters to God
I kept my struggle a secret because I felt that as a Believer, I would be admitting that the enemy was winning…which is not true at all. In scripture we are reminded to cast our cares upon the Lord (1 Peter 5:7), think on lovely and pure things (Phil 4:8) to take every thought captive to obey Christ (2 Cor 10:5) and to rebuke the devourer (James 4:7). I knew all these in my heart but didn’t put then to action in my head on that highway. Yet when all else fails, I knew to call on the only name that saves: Jesus.
If you’re reading this and you’re going through a season and you feel like abandoning this life, I plead with you to talk to someone.
The things that YOU are
Someone Who Matters!
The things that YOU are not
God has placed you here on purpose. Don’t let the lies of the enemy, the false expectations of this broken society, and the failures of your past lead you to a place of self-destruction…. because it’s all in your head.